OKAY! I have decided! Too much for me to take. 3 incidents which happened in 2 days which made me stand firm.

NOT TO TRUST ANYONE SO EASILY AGAIN, NOT TO BE SO SOFT HEARTED EVER AGAIN!

Throughout my entire 20 years and estimated 3 mths of life, I've always been soft hearted, GULIBLE. Or in other words, being a fool! Or in a worse context, STUPID!

At work, I tried to give the best to the client, give them the best service. To the blogger, I hoped I tried to answer every queries that they have, and in any case, TRY hard to 'fight' for them in terms of monetary, ads or contest prizes. I have NEVER NEVER NEVER shown any disatisfaction in front of them even if I curse them behind their back for being so difficult. To sum it all up, I've always tried to build a harmonous relationship for everyone. Not tryin to compliment myself but believe it or not, I'm speaking the truth.

Just 2 days back, I was held between the client and the blogger. As the middleperson, it was difficult. In the first complaint (to the blogger), I helped her to 'gain trust' from the client by suggesting another solution out of the problem. If not she will be shipped out of the campaign. However, despite given 2nd chance, the blogger made mistake again and now I was pulled in the mess. That was headache number 1, for being too kind to give solutions in the first place.

On the same day, after conversing with one friend. It made me realised that a decision I made had reflected badly on me although I was not the "primary subject topic". Because it was me who gave the greenlight, purely just because I see that girl's perseverance and somehow 'took pity', knowing that the quality wasn't there.. In return for me, a remark of bad taste maybe?

I cannot be 'weak', always saying "yes yes yes yes yes" to everythng anything wadeva things for work matters. That doesnt help me in my career at all. NOT AT ALL! Having that personality, I will never stand out and always be the one taking orders and never rise. I have to learn. You may say that it is not me anymore, I am just trying to be. Well at least i tried and I want to be. It isn't a negative change.

To the last and most angry yet disappointing part. I love to share things, esp good ones. My rapidshare account, premium. I lend to 5 of my friends and one of them betrayed my trust obviously. EVERY SINGLE MONTH, I pay. My friends are using it for FREE, which of course I don't mind. It didn't came to me to change the password simply because of the big fat word TRUST. I tried logging in to my account today. The password was wrong. I panicked. Like what most people will do, I retrieved it back.

Listen, the main thing is I activated the security lock. Although logged in, in order for someone to change the password, they need to access my HOTMAIL to gain the code. That is what's good for rapidshare's security. SO OBVOUSLY SOMEONE HACKED INTO MY HOTMAIL RIGHT!?

I thought, fine. Since I got my account back. I should let the matter rest. (I've changed my PW) In my mind, I was in denial mode. At that point of time, I still trust my friends that they probably are not the ones. I told Kenny this:

"I think I changed it that time while testing the security code and forgot to switch it back, they (my friends) wldnt do that"

JUST MINS AFTER! My MSN notifies that rapidshare sent me a mail. I thought the problem solved, why they send me again? Coincidentally, my MSN got signed out stating logged in at another computer. And I got signed in back again. I did not care much bout it tho..

Later, I tried logging in Rapidshare. ACCOUNT COULDNT BE FOUND!!!!!!!

Login name = failed
PW = failed

And worst! EMAIL ADDRESS = FAIL TOO!!!!

WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF!!!! HE CHANGED ALL MY STUFF!!

How the hell can I verify now!!! Immediately I login into hotmail. THE MOST SHOCKING THING OF ALL, ALL MY MAILS, BE IT IN INBOX, FOLDERS JUNK OR WADEVA, GONE! In case you are wondering why that person can access my hotmail. That's because my PW is standard. So now should I in return thank you for nt changing my hotmail PW? *roll eyes*

OKAY I KNOW I AM DUMB. I already made it clear at the very start that I am damn fucking gulible. Hold on, just when you think you can hack into my other important accounts using the same old password, you are wrong. I CHANGED THEM ALL! FUCK U. I mean him.

C'mon it is not like some "ilovekenny" passwrd. IT IS A FREAKING COMPLICATED NUMBERIC + LETTER PASSWRD THAT ONLY CAN BE REMEMBERED IF U MEMORISED HARD! FOR GOD'S SAKE.

I had to fucking call to SWITZERLAND and speak to that helpful angmoh and spent so much time on it. He was not able to retrieve any of my shyt at all!!! Because that fucker cleared my mail (I can't check) and fucking changed all my info. In the end I had to prt screen him a paypal transaction of mine to verify. AND THANK GOD ITS BACK TO ME!

So, friends tell me. What do Iget in return for being kind and helpful?! No wonder people changed as they grew older. The world seems selfish too. I am not lending my rapidshare accounts anymore, except to 1 poly friend. Sorry, blame it on that hacker.