I was clearing my desktop and hesitating to whether delete off the document titled "Coaches". That was a list compiled by Wennie (I decided to change her name cos' it looks nicer with -ie than -y) and stored in my comp for my frequent use.

Those frantic moments when I couldn't get a coach back to Malaysia during Thursday night or Friday afternoon, hoping that someplace somewhere I can just hop on to any lok cock bus, doesnt matter how lousy the suspension is, and just GO!

That is how that document comes in handy. I still remember my phrases to every of the coach services I dialed, in that kanchiong tone. Always and never failing, there will be that single seat there just for me ;) You must trust me, it is super difficult to do last minute booking. Hehe.

Now, that document probably gotta rust in my documents folder for quite some time. Hopefully, to not use it anymore.

Still, that simple sentence of yours comforts me this noon. "A lot" would have a much more value and significance. Also thanks to that, the distractions went away..

and i could happily be myself till the end of today ;)

As i reflected back to my previous 2 relationships, I thought I was too immature to handle it well. It was by faith that we have come this far, and by faith we shall continue down this road..

Someone told me-

Women are emotional, they do things by their heart.
Men are logical, they do things by their mind.

How true is that?

My obsession with you made me skipped my daily interests.. *laughs*

Forgetting where I've stopped watching my dramas..
Mind block during surfing
My gaming addiction
Imba downloading (ohh i so love it still, just a lil dull lately, hello RS still alive?)
Meeting my friends (not again another MIA period?)

And also sadly, Mahjong - distracted (cos' I'm just thinking of you so much that I forgot to pong!)

But no worries! In a short while, I'll re-start my quest! lol.

That biblical poster in the room seems like God's message to me. Was repeating the sentence again & again in my mind but couldn't take my eyes off it..

“Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no records of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.” 1 Corinthians 13:4-8

This sentence will allow me to reflect upon myself in the next 12312312 week/months/years until I fully able to accomplish all of it! Today I felt guilty..... when I realised that in fact I am just starting to really understand you after 2 years. Geez.

I want to brainstorm for the best X'mas gift ever...

The bad habit of sleeping at peculiar hours runs in my family. Spot the only lighted house amongst the other pitched-dark windows, that should be my room light.

The mails came with one titled "Santa Secret". *Jeng jeng jeng* as I scrolled down, the bracketed name stood between the lines. Next thing I thought, this chrismas is gonna be interesting..

Wenny and I awakened by irritating scruffy who badly needs company. I was telling her last night about how boring Singapore can be. All you can do is to have dinner after a day's work, if nothing else to do, probably catch a movie. Done that with Kenny last night, today is another brand new day you gotta start cracking your brains on what to do. Since he always wanted to good rest out of the hectic weekdays of work. I thought we should rest at home.

Understood that he was under a lot of stress lately, instead of nagging him not bringing me out! I should probably do the opposite to make him feel that he is blessed to have me! KEKE! The oppose psychology!

Cook yummy dinner + 1 hr of massage + just chill and relax @ home...

Wenny is craving chicken essence and i'm craving for MJ..

*yawns* time to get my lazy butt of this chair..

I admit that it was wrong of me to ever doubt God. And I ask for Your forgiveness.

The most precious and valuable gift sent from above on my birthday- the work permit Kenny received. It sparked the start of hope and certainty. However, a completely new life which I have never expected to become.

Gained and lost some. Depending how you look at it. Am very thankful for all the advices from concerned love ones. We are growing and these setbacks will make us stronger. Like some have said, the phases of life, all couples will have to go through it. I believe Kenny and I are about 80% there to the end of this phase. We have finally waited for this day to come. God let this miracle to happen and it is up to us to work things out perfectly ;)

He used to always wanted me to blog about him, so here it is!

From me to him

It has always been so wonderful to be with you. Even for today, it was more than ever. I could sense it, without you telling me how your love for me have not changed. My faith will be present, just like how it was for the past 2 years.

It is Christmas again. Remember that picture we took infront of Central's xmas tree? We are going to go back every year end to snap the exact same picture with the different xmas tree deco

*draws on your palm!*

Like I've said so many times before, God has given me great friends (the forgetful lousy pok who always forget where she puts her phone, the authoritative boss who denies an english name, the pathetic guy who dreaded NS life hoping that he can chao geng MC for the entire 2 years, the dumbo guy who almost broke my room door, the silly girl who hopes that she can just kill off her client, the happy-go-lucky who dreamt of swimming with salmon) whom I can count on, a job which I do not mind working hard for and lastly the miracle which struck me unexpected with a near 0% chance..

Ought to be thankful and believe that there is a reason for everything happening to you..

P/S: WATCH BOLT IN THEATRES! I AM SURE YOU WON'T REGRET!!!!! 4/5 stars!!! (Just thought nothing is perfect, so I gave a star less ;P)

OKAY! No more emo post.

I'm passing the phase of change.

It is so wierd. Usually couple goes through the transition of..

Friend > Dating > Domestic Partnership

But my relationship seems to be different. When we first started out, we are already in the phase of Domestic Partnership.

Now that everything has been stablised, meaning him back in Singapore for good. We have decided to have a brand new life. At first, I wasn't really comfortable with that because everytime we met up for a certain period of time (usually short), we will try(we always do) spend ALL of the time hugging and smooching. Nah, doing all kinds of dating stuff whenever we can.

Since he is back for good, well we gotta take things slow already. It is funny to say that our phases are like the opposite:

Domestic partnership > Dating > HOPEFULLY NOT BECOMING FRIENDS AGAIN!?

LOL. But isnt it a fun thing to be back at dating times and being honey honey? ;)

I love you darling boy!